Tag Archive | Anxiety

Careers

I’ve often wondered if the career path I have chosen is the right one for me.  I have a bachelor’s in accounting, which I finished even after having my first child.  The only problem is that I can’t seem to get a job with that degree, other than Jackson Hewitt doing taxes (which anyone can do, mind you).  The reasoning from potential employers: “You need more experience.”  Well, my simple (and logical) question is this: How am I supposed to get more experience, if no one will hire me in order to get the experience I need?

I’ve been job hunting for over a year now since I moved from one state to another.  And still nothing.  Same reasoning behind every possibility of a job: I need more experience.  I’m to the point that I’m giving up on this degree that I worked so hard for because it isn’t making me happy.  I’m stressed because I can’t find a job in my field.  And I’m stressed because even just doing taxes during January through April is annoying and stressful and makes me very unhappy.  (They work me to the bone.  7 days a week, 8 hours a day… If not more..)

So, the question on everyone’s mind is this: How do I find a career that makes me happy? What should I do to be happy with the career I think is right for me?

My husband asked me this very question last night and it made me sit and think.  And I admitted to myself that I’m not happy doing this accounting thing, I’m not happy one bit.  So, what do I do?  I started looking into teaching professions.  Since I already have a bachelor’s in something, what’s my next step?  If not full-time teaching, then maybe I should just be a sub.  I would be on call all year and I could still spend time with my kids!  But it had me thinking again, what do I have to do to become a substitute teacher?  Everywhere I look, it just brings be back to getting a degree in teaching.  I’ve been told that I don’t need to do anything to become a sub, just fill out an app at a school.  Is that true?  Is it really that simple?

Honestly, I don’t think so now days.  I feel like every time I find a solution to become happy, I get stumped with another problem.  And these problems I keep facing are driving me crazy and stressing me out to where it affects every aspect of my life (and I mean every aspect).

I wish things in life were simple.  That I could do something that makes me happy and brings in money.  I don’t want a hobby, although that would be the easy way out.  I want a job that doesn’t stress me out and doesn’t cause me to work 50+ hours a week.  I want a job that allows me to spend time with my family and have time to do things, like clean my house.  Don’t get me wrong, I love being a stay-at-home mommy for my kids, but I need something to do, right? Maybe I’ll look into kids books or blogging for cash or crocheting blankets.  Well, we will see after this tax season, wish me luck!

And be happy readers!

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Honestly, I really don’t know what to say.

I am getting workman’s comp from my job at LJS due to the traumatic stress caused by the tornado.  What shall they be paying me, you may ask?  Nothing.  Not a damn cent.  Instead they are paying for me to go to therapy at one of the hospitals that actually survived.

Therapy… Does it actually work?  To me, I don’t think it does.  But I haven’t really been in therapy before.  So how do I really know?  I don’t.  I guess I should go.  I mean, I didn’t get to after the first tornado I went through when I was little.  So, maybe this will help me out a bit.  Maybe it will help me not think these bad terrifying thoughts anymore.  It frightens me, to tell you the truth.  It really does.

Right now, I’m unsure as to what to do.  I’m trying to read or right or even watch TV.  Do something that gets my mind off of the bad thoughts, the death thoughts.

So, therapy is probably going to be good for me.  I just need to actually be able to talk to a complete stranger.  But isn’t that what I’m doing here?  Maybe so…

XOXO