To Delete or Not to Delete, That is the Question…

I have been debating for a while now on whether or not to delete this blog and begin a new one.  My only reasoning is that I don’t get very many readers these days. Even if I posted once a day, I still wouldn’t get a single reader. Perhaps I’ll start a new one regarding the everyday life of a mother of 2, or a working mom, or something along those lines.  Or just random scribbles.  Or just delete and not write a single thing.

Ponder on that a while readers. Let me know (if any of you read this anymore…)



I’ve often wondered if the career path I have chosen is the right one for me.  I have a bachelor’s in accounting, which I finished even after having my first child.  The only problem is that I can’t seem to get a job with that degree, other than Jackson Hewitt doing taxes (which anyone can do, mind you).  The reasoning from potential employers: “You need more experience.”  Well, my simple (and logical) question is this: How am I supposed to get more experience, if no one will hire me in order to get the experience I need?

I’ve been job hunting for over a year now since I moved from one state to another.  And still nothing.  Same reasoning behind every possibility of a job: I need more experience.  I’m to the point that I’m giving up on this degree that I worked so hard for because it isn’t making me happy.  I’m stressed because I can’t find a job in my field.  And I’m stressed because even just doing taxes during January through April is annoying and stressful and makes me very unhappy.  (They work me to the bone.  7 days a week, 8 hours a day… If not more..)

So, the question on everyone’s mind is this: How do I find a career that makes me happy? What should I do to be happy with the career I think is right for me?

My husband asked me this very question last night and it made me sit and think.  And I admitted to myself that I’m not happy doing this accounting thing, I’m not happy one bit.  So, what do I do?  I started looking into teaching professions.  Since I already have a bachelor’s in something, what’s my next step?  If not full-time teaching, then maybe I should just be a sub.  I would be on call all year and I could still spend time with my kids!  But it had me thinking again, what do I have to do to become a substitute teacher?  Everywhere I look, it just brings be back to getting a degree in teaching.  I’ve been told that I don’t need to do anything to become a sub, just fill out an app at a school.  Is that true?  Is it really that simple?

Honestly, I don’t think so now days.  I feel like every time I find a solution to become happy, I get stumped with another problem.  And these problems I keep facing are driving me crazy and stressing me out to where it affects every aspect of my life (and I mean every aspect).

I wish things in life were simple.  That I could do something that makes me happy and brings in money.  I don’t want a hobby, although that would be the easy way out.  I want a job that doesn’t stress me out and doesn’t cause me to work 50+ hours a week.  I want a job that allows me to spend time with my family and have time to do things, like clean my house.  Don’t get me wrong, I love being a stay-at-home mommy for my kids, but I need something to do, right? Maybe I’ll look into kids books or blogging for cash or crocheting blankets.  Well, we will see after this tax season, wish me luck!

And be happy readers!

Shopping and earning

So do you like to shop. Now this is mainly for food. But hey, I’m sure you want to be rewarded for even that, right? Right. So here’s the deal peeps. Check out ibotta. It’s a cool little app. I’ve earned with it and so can you. If you don’t shop, that’s ok. Just go with your parents and use their receipts and the items they buy. Now there is a catch. They only do certain items. But hey, extra money is extra money. Click on the link below and enjoy..


Have you ever had a day where you didn’t want to go to work?  Well, I think we all have those days.  Especially me.  I hate my job.  I despise getting up every morning and having to get ready to go there.  It’s boring and I am not getting the experience I need for future job opportunities.  I work at an accounting firm and I’m going to school for accounting (this is my last semester).  I have worked here for 2 years now and the sad thing is, is that they haven’t even given me any accounting work to do.  I copy papers all day.  I am an office assistant.  The bottom of the totem pole, is where I’m at.  I have done all the dirty work for this job.  I hate it so much, I loathe it would be a better phrase actually.

My life is at a stand-still because of this job.  They won’t even attempt to promote me.  I tried to ask for an internship, nothing.  The internship they said for me would be just doing what I’m doing already.  Nothing for accounting, which is what the internship is actually for.  I honestly could not believe it.  A waste of my time, to be honest with you all (not like anyone even reads this).  I just want a job where I like going there everyday.  I am constantly watched, I cannot do anything.  I have been threatened with my job more than once.  And to top it all off, I almost did not get my job back after I had my daughter.  I was told that I was unfocused the last 6 months.  Well, (1) I was pregnant, (2) I was in the processing of finding a new rental house and moving, and (3) I was in school.  I believe I had a lot on my plate that semester.  But he told me that he had to make an exception because there were two (2) other pregnant girls in the office.  I wish I would have gotten fired that day, I would have been able to get unemployment and not have to worry about sitters or work, just worry about my daughter and school.  Would have taken a lot of stress off my back, honestly.

Today is just one of those days.  This thought process started when a new girl was hired.  She just graduated Dec. 2012, has hardly any experience, and it just pisses me off.  I have been here for two damn years, no promotions, nothing.  And all of a sudden another just-out-of-school college student gets an accounting position.  Seems unfair to me.  I guess I will just see what is out there for me, job-wise.

Cash for Surveys

Just noticed a semi-quick way to earn cash.  Take surveys from home.  It’s fun and quick.  It’s on CashCrate.  You earn daily $0.80 by taking the daily surveys (which gets you $50 a month), then by checking in everyday you get $0.03.  Every penny adds up, right?  So, here is the link:

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Or, just click here:

It doesn’t take long, and it’s free to do.

Work at Home

Since I’ve been on maternity leave for 3 weeks now, I have been debating on finding a “work at home” job.  However, there are a few problems.  One is that I’m not sure if they are legitimte or not.  I’ve been thinking of seriously being a freelance writer or a paid blogger.  But how would I be able to do that?  Maybe even review books on my blog and get paid for it.  Or review products or websites, or something.  I would just love to write and get paid for it.  I mean, who wouldn’t want to do that?  I love to read, I love to write.  Why not get paid for doing two things that I love to do?  It would be awesome and amazing, and freeing in a way I think.  Heck, I would love to be an at home editor for a publishing company.  Because then I would be able to read books and edit them.  Then, maybe do a double job and review them as well!  Maybe I’m just having a wishful thinking moment, but I don’t want to go back to work outside my home.  I would love to stay home with my gorgeous little girl!  (And not just because I am breast feeding, but because I can’t stand to leave her for even a second — Unless I want sleep, of course..).  But we shall see, because I have school starting on the 20th (online) and work in 3 weeks, if not on the 20th as well…

Just a Little Rant From Me…

Have you ever been in debt?  I know I certainly am.  It is just those ridiculous loans you take out when you need some cash, FAST.  But in all reality, they suck.  The interest rates are high and most times (like how I am) you can’t afford to make that monthly payment

I will admit, I have a total of 4 loans out (between me and my husband).  Yes, I got married!  He has 1, the others are mine.  They weren’t taken out for us though.  And for whom were they taken out for, you ask.  My father and his 22-year-old girlfriend.  Ugh!  All for us to all move in together and help each other out.  However, that did not happen.  They moved out and left us with all the loans to pay, the bills, and a house payment that we couldn’t afford.  We can’t afford any of it.  My father has ruined my life in the past 9 months, has messed up my credit bad, and keeps delaying paying me money to help me pay off those stupid loans.

But enough ranting.  I had come up with a plan.  A really good, plausible plan.  $100 a week allocated between the 4 loan companies.  This would allow me to pay over the monthly payment for each and get them paid off sooner.  My first weekly payment was due last Friday.  I made the payments, then get told by my dad that he couldn’t pay me the money.  Uh, WHAT?!  He had known about my plan for 2 weeks, 2 WEEKS!  As if $100 a week from his paycheck would hurt him.  I had thought it would be easier than paying me almost $400 from just one check.  But so far, he has made excuses.  Like every person does when they are to pay you back.

Excuse number 1:  I had that week off from when the baby was born.

Excuse number 2:  I had that week off from when I had to fix my truck.

Excuse number 3:  I’ve only worked 19 days total since the baby has been born.

Well, I’m sorry.  Not my fault that you have a lazy girl for a fiance that can’t work.  Not my fault that everytime she freaks out, you abandon your job and go straight home.  These are things that can be fixed with a local job that pays decently. 

He is supposedly supposed to make all this money every week, but hasn’t.  He makes less than we do a month right now.  I’m behind on my loans, my bills, etc.  I have past due things from the house we all had lived in that he should have helped me pay, but alas, he did not.  I pay more in bills than he does.  I struggle on a daily basis. 

So, struggling.  I set a budget for every paycheck we get.  Did you know that I don’t even put food into the budget?  That I’m 2 weeks from my due date and my future months don’t have the baby in the budget either?  I just have bills.  I’m lucky to have put gas for our vehicles in the budget.  And my dad thinks he is struggling.  His “woman” (and I call her this because she is my age, when she is really a girl) gets food stamps.  They are able to get food every month.  We are lucky if we are able to get food.  We make too much money for food stamps, yet we get WIC.

Life, is unknown to us all, and debt is a concept that I wish I had never gotten myself into.  I wish my dad had not had me take out loans as soon as I turned 18.  I wouldn’t be in this mess now at the age of 22.  I would be debt free.  I wouldn’t have taken out a credit card in my name.  I would have exceptional credit.  But of course, life did not go that way for me.  Instead I got a father who instructed me to get loans, credit cards, etc. and ruin my credit, my life, my ability to have extra cash for when I want to go out and spend a lovely evening with my husband.

If I had one wish, it would be that I could go back in time to when I found out I was pregnant and tell my father that we do not want to move in with him.  Then, we wouldn’t be in this mess with the loans.  Then life would be so much more easier.  I would have money, I would have less stress.  But we can’t always get what we want, not even a simple wish as time travel for one simple purpose of saving ourselves from this giant pit we’ve fallen into.  But that’s life.

And life as we know it, is probably not going to get any better.  The only thing that is going to make our life better and happier, is our baby.  Little Alice Belle.  She should be here within the next few weeks, as I am due July 25.  I still haven’t dilated yet, no sign of labor, still closed.  So, possibility is that I may have her late.  I just can’t wait for her to get here, but at the same time, I’m nervous and scared.  I’m stressed out because I don’t have all the things that I need.  I feel like I’m not ready to be a mother, although my husband tells me I will do great.  But we will see when she gets here.

But I am going to leave as I have things to do, people to talk to.  Have a good day everyone, and hopefully a better week than I may have.