Archive | April 2011

Guys

Guys are rude, obnoxious, and only have one thing on their mind.  What is that you might ask?  Uh, sex.  There is your answer.  One word.  Well, they are simple minded creatures.  And I really hate the fact that all they have one their mind is that.  Or most guys do.

This guy I am going on a date with just asks me nothing but sexual questions.  I kinda have this feeling that I don’t wanna go on this date with him because of that.  What should I do?  I know that for sure that I am not willing to give up the Big V just to date a guy, if that is all he is interested in.  I find it ridiculous that this is all that he wants out of me, I think.  So my question is:  Should I go on this date with the guy or tell him now that I’m busy?  I’m in this big dilemma.  I’m unsure as to what to do with this weekend.

Now, on the flipside of things.  As I said before, there is this guy that I like that I have in class, yes he is older than me and hella cute.  I added him on facebook and he added me back, but where do I go from there?  Do I say “Hey, wanna hang out sometime? Maybe go on a date?”  I’ve been told that a chick asking a guy out is kinda hot, but again, I don’t know what to do.

Oh, man, boredom is seeping out of my skull as I ponder what to do… I’ll keep updates on my worrisome thoughts..

XOXO

Taking a Chance

You know how a while back I posted about how I should take a chance?  Well, Sunday night I am going on a date, I guess you could call it that.  Me and this guy are going to have pizza then go and watch a movie.  We have yet to figure out what movie to watch, though.  And as soon as I tell my dad that I’m going on a date he flips out on me about how this boy shouldn’t do anything to me and if he does then he is gonna have to kill him.  Can you say over-protective much?  Yeah, pretty much so.

So, it’s just a date and I don’t see the big deal in why he is flipping out on me.  Then he tells me that he is only kidding, uh, right… I honestly don’t think so.

Anywho, I am taking a chance on life.  Not that I’m gonna go and sleep with the guy, although (like a typical guy) he wants to do just that.  Go figure.  It was we are going to meet at his or my place, but you know what that entails.  Sex, cuz apparently that is the only thing on their minds.  He told me that he couldn’t be more than friends with me because he likes sex too much, but if we ended up dating further, then sex would be seen in the future I suppose.  Why is it that guys only think about sex?  Cuz they only think with one head, and not the one that carries the brain. Ha Ha.

So, what am I supposed to do?  Take the chance with the date and see where it goes?  I’m thinking that I will go with that.  It’s hard to say where this will lead me, but I guess I’ll just have to wait and see.

On another note, does age really matter?  The guy is 2 years younger than me.  So age doesn’t matter, right?  He’s a Gemini and I’m a Gemini.  They say that Geminis are good together:  “When two Geminis partner off, it really is like four people coming together.  The Twins love to toss back and forth tidbits of playful banter, sarcasm and occasional ironic cynicism.  In an intimate love relationship, there is certainly a place for seriousness, which Gemini would do well to learn. If both partners can pay more attention to their feelings rather than being ruled solely by thoughts and intellect, they will greatly enhance their love experience.  Gemini is an Air Sign, and thus responds to the world and to their romantic partner with a more rational than emotional focus. Their short attention spans cause them to burn out sometimes, but two Geminis together burn out at the same time! And, of course, that Gemini creativity will dream up a new scheme a moment later.  Gemini is a Mutable Sign. Their flexible, easy-going natures make the four of them a perfect couple. These two have mastered the art of compromise; two Mutable signs together can easily form a conflict-free union. Just about the only thing that may lead to a real argument is a discussion that has gone out of hand; luckily, Gemini quickly realizes the insignificance of proving a point — and of fighting in general.  What’s the best aspect of the Gemini-Gemini relationship? The enormous amount of intellectual energy and stimulation they provide one another. They are able to save one another from leading a mundane existence. Together they can entertain the world and accomplish more than either could alone.”

Or so these are a few tid bits that Yahoo! Horoscopes gives us between two Geminis.  But who knows really.  So again, I guess I’ll Just see how things pan out between me and this guy.

XOXO

Story

Ever since I can remember I’ve wanted to be a writer, not just any writer, but a well-known one.  Now I want to be a writer and I’m currently investing my free time to reading romance novels, watching romantic comedies, etc as research for my own book.  Well, my time invested in these free extra-curricular activities are what I’ve always done.  So, no newness there.

Anyway, as I’m sure you know, writing a book is something that is hella difficult to do.  You have to come up with your two main characters, ie the hero and heroine.  Perhaps a few minor characters that are always there, ie best friends, workers, regular people in the characters’ lives, etc.  Then there is the plot, the conflict, the time and place, and of course, paranormal or not.  This is all involved in writing and it is so hard to come up with.

However, I have come up with 6 characters thus far in my story, 3 of which have already shown up and it hasn’t even been but 3 pages and 1300 words.  Hey, I’m only on chapter 1 so far and this is harder than I thought.

On the upside, I have actually talked to a few authors (Jade Lee, Larissa Ione, Laura Wright, Lauren Dane, Anya Bast, Tessa Dawn, etc just to name a few) have told me to just keep on writing and that I should be fine.  So, that’s what I’m doing.  Writing everyday until I finish this book and edit it myself then perhaps I will send it off to some publishers and *fingers crossed* get my book published!  Then perhaps I can start on a series I’ve been thinking about.  But of course, it all depends on the time and if anyone actually likes it.  Maybe I will even get a series of short novellas published, but who knows for sure.

Anyway.  Off to finish chapter 1, maybe I will post some excerpts, but I’m not entirely sure because you never know who will steal your work.  I’ve heard that it has happened a time or two.  So, off to writing and will be back to post what I think is best!  Maybe I will just post some other stuff up, who knows.  I’ll just keep you guessing..

XOXO

Time

Time is one of those things that I just can’t seem to grasp.

I believe that there is not enough time in the day to do anything, let alone start something new in my life.  There is not enough time to take a chance on anything.  People take a chance on me, but I seem to not give them the time of day.  Typical, but yes it happens.

Time seems to be slipping through my fingers.

I believe that time is going by too fast.  It needs to slow down so that I can do the things that I want to do in life.  Speaking of life, I feel like mine isn’t going like I want it to.  But who doesn’t feel that way?  Everyone, right? I mean, everyone feel like it’s not going their way.

Time is pointless really.  We all want it to hurry up, yet we all want it to slow down.  I suppose one could say that when we want time to behave a certain way, it’s due to what is occurring in our lives.

Is it so wrong..?

Is it so wrong for me to hate my dad, even just a little bit?  I truly want him to be happy, but when he is, I’m jealous and I hate him for being that way.  Why?  Because I’m not happy, I’m miserable.  Truly miserable.

Perhaps I need to just find someone and take a chance.  I’m tired of being miserable all the time.  But as I said in the last blog, my expectations are extremely too high and no one will ever meet them.  And it really difficult to take a chance when you have 2 jobs and go to school full-time.  I honestly have no time to do anything, let alone take a chance to start a relationship with someone.

My question would be, how does one take a chance?  Where would someone meet something that I could start possibly dating or whatnot?

Well, there is this guy in two of my classes.  He is cute, older, but cute.  I have this feeling that he may like me.  He looks at me when we all talk, or even when I’m not in the conversations talking.  Does this possibly mean something?  Call me crazy, but what if it’s nothing?  How would I try to talk to him one on one and “hang out”?  I do like him, but I don’t know what to do really.

I suppose I should just see where it leads and if nothing, then nothing I will take my chances elsewhere.  However, if it leads somewhere, then I will take a chance with him.  Honestly, I don’t know..

Chances

Chances are what everyone is afraid of taking.  We all know that we should take them, but we are too scared to take them.

For me, I know for sure that I am terrified beyond reason to take any sort of chance.  I just don’t want to get hurt.  My dad tells met that I need to take a chance in order to live.  He says that I need to experience love and heartbreak.  I want to experience love, but not the heartbreak.  I want to find my true love and never be hurt, but we all know that that is just faerie tales that will never happen.

I just don’t have the time to take any sort of chance in life, let alone a chance in love.  As I watch movies I realize some of the main female characters that I am like.  Tiana in “The Princess and the Frog“, I am sort of like her.  I am always working and never have time for someone else let alone free time.  I probably wouldn’t even see someone who loves me right in front of me until the last minute, right before it’s too late.

So, do we take chances and just go through the possible heartbreak? Or do we just go on with our lives and never open ourselves up to the possibilities of love and heartbreak?  Me, I would choose Door number 2, because as much as I want love, I’m scared like I said before.

Perhaps I should overcome my fears of being hurt and just take the chance.  Take a chance on life and some guy out there in this forsaken town that I live in.  Because we all know that most girls have high expectations that can never be met by any man out there, so we must cut some details out.

Goal:  Take a chance sometime this month and see where it leads you.  Whether it’s cutting your hair or going on a date when you never would and taking a chance on the possibility of love..

Contests and Fun

I know how everyone here loves a contest and the chance to win something for free!  I know I do.  So, I’m going to let ya’ll in on a lil secret:

Laura Wright is this amazing author for paranormal romances and is having contests like all day today. The like is below:

<http://www.facebook.com/pages/Laura-Wright-Author/125107200844672?sk=wall&gt;

So there is a possibility that you could win! I’ve won on Larissa Ione’s contests before and so let me tell you, you can too!

That’s what I have for now.