Archive | October 2010


Today was an eventful day. If you want to keep a secret, keep it a secret. If complications arise, what should one do? Honestly, I have no clue. If you really like someone, go for them. However, what if they’re with someone already? Again, honestly, I have no clue…

Things are beginning to get intense in this little affair of mine. Hands roam my body as my own hands roam his. He is sculpted, but not with too much muscle. Tall and sturdy. And he will bend to my every will. Mutual feelings are felt on both sides as we contemplate what is going on between the two of us. There is no love, yet. However, there is the intense feeling that we feel for the other. I just don’t want to get hurt by him, and he doesn’t want to hurt me. So you see that things are complicated between us.. *sigh*




Today is a day of thinking.  Thinking about what has happened and what I hope will happen.

Recently I have been thinking of a certain guy.  However, this certain guy is currently dating a girl who is an utter certain bad word.  She is the type to be abusive and take a child away from their father.  Yes, he has a daughter, who is just so utterly cute.

So, secrets. Being sneaky with him has been the best kept secret I’ve had since forever.  Love really isn’t in the stars as of yet, but having fun is.  And being sneaky.  The risk is amazing.  No one must find out what we do.  We take off into the walk-in fridge or the storage room or even behind the storage shed and make out.  It’s really amazing.  I just like kissing him.  It’s not as if things are going to get any further than they are going now, at least I don’t think anything is.  Is it so wrong to want someone who is with another person?  Is it so wrong that I want him to be with me?  Don’t get me wrong, I’m enjoying what we do, but is it enough?  Probably not.  However, it’s fun and so risky.

Even after a day of not seeing him, I can still feel his hands, taste his lips, taste the kiss, everything that happened the day before.  I just pray to the gods and goddesses that I’m not falling for him.  I don’t want to be hurt if something serious happens between us and he won’t leave his current partner, not like he likes her.  He is only with her because of the daughter they have together.  So, I’m waiting to see what happens next.